Hormones

[tencrush]

Oh, God, I feel like shit. I feel like some bloated, gross milk factory that just sits in a corner getting ignored by everyone because it's too fat and disgusting for anyone to deal with or even acknowledge. I hate this part.

Keep trying to distract myself with housework or shopping or whatever I can find to take my mind off the fact that I feel like I've done my bit and there is now nothing left of me that is of even the remotest interest to anyone, ever.

I can't stop crying. Help. :(

Comments

[nuptse.livejournal.com]

*softs* oh dearie. Just keep telling yourself this is all normal and you'll get through it. Curse your body for playing tricks and keep telling yourself really isn't as bad as it seems right now. I know you've been there, done that, but sometimes you forget (I fully believe in maternal amnesia, it's what makes us want to have more) or it's all in degrees with each experience. I'm cheering for you!! (but I'm not wearing the knee socks or pigtails, noooway)

I remember at one point, at 4 am when I was breastfeeding for the umpteenth time since midnight and I was sore and trying to get over a bad case of mastitis with a fever, I was convinced the baby was trying. to. kill. me. She'd cry and I'd cry and I wondered what the hell I was doing with a 9 pound tick that wanted to kill me hanging off my tit 24/7.
Good times. How in the hell the human race ever got off the ground, I'll never know.

[tencrush]

Thank you. I have been here, I know I'll be fine, but I just want to run away at the moment. I'll be OK.